Thursday, March 31, 2011
CHANGE DAY 4
Almost make my baby angry
Haix.. I am useless and never listen to him.
We almost break too.
But he gave me one last chance.
So this time, I will change for the good.
I will break the 100 days without making him angry.
I will do my best this time.
Because I love him.
I have applied 10 jobs and submit my resume to each job but i never get any reply.
Stress up now.
My parent don't have the money for me to study.
And I don't want them to work anymore.
They work so hard and never enjoy.
All because of me.
In the end, I still let them down.
Because I never study at all for my final and I slack all the way for my year 3.
I need to find a job which can provide enough money for my family and me plus him.
But my dream is to open a cafe together with my sis.
But my dream is to open a cafe together with my sis.
Because she is good in cooking western food.
And I wants to learn how to bake my own cake.
Dream is dream. I have to put a hold to it.
Until I can feed my family first.
So ya.
Will continue blogging tomorrow or next week.............
Thursday, March 10, 2011
I don't know what to do with my blog so I think i just continue blogging whenever I can.
A lot of things have happened.
And I am stuck in my life.
I have decided not to continue with my studies. That for sure.
But I don't what to work as.
I have applied for retail jobs. Although I don't look like the type of people who is suitable for the job, but to tell you guy the true. I want to work in a retail line instead of F&B. I likes retail more than F&B.
I don't know why I start off my career in F&B line.
I wants to do something which I like doing and not doing something because of money.
I hope the jobs which I applied will give me a answer tomorrow or soon.
My love life is in a mess. I mean I make it into a mess.
I hurt my partner so much till the extend that we almost break up.
It a wake up call for me.
It time for me to change for my partner.
I know I cannot change myself by blinking my eyes.
I cannot rush into changing myself.
I don't know how to make it up to my partner.
My partner kind of treating me maybe a bit cold. Not totally cold.
It all my fault for throwing my every thing onto my partner.
Stupid me. Seriously I am so damn dumb.
No one can accept who I am.
I mean to the older generation. Even much more older generation can't accept such thing as loving the same sex.
How to change their mind set?? So they will understand that we don't have to love the opposite sex for most of the time.
We have our right to choose which direction we want to go.
They should let us choose the right path.
SO JUST SHUT UP IF U CAN. YOU DON'T HAVE TO INTERFERE WHICH DIRECTION I CHOOSE. AS LONG AS I AM ABLE TO FEED MY FAMILY PLUS MY OWN AND GET A DECENT JOB. WHAT MORE U WANT FROM ME.
Tuesday, November 23, 2010
Hello everyone!!!
I am back to blog.
I have a hard time getting use to this new keyboard so if there any spelling error, don't laugh just ignore it.
A lot of things have happened when i not blogging.
What should I start??
Erm.... alright.. I will start off on my relationship status.
It going well for now.
And I have done a lot of things wrongly and she don't like it.
I have to make amendment on my mistake.
Not just that, I tend to lose my cool easily. That must be something wrong with me.
I don't lose my cool so easily. so ya.
I have to control my cool closely and not lose it so easily.
I don't want our relationship to be ruin by me.
We have gone through so much thick and thin, I don't want us to go on a different path in the end.
And I hope our relationship can be stronger again like last time.
Although all the changes is on me, I still want my baby to pat me on the shoulder before I lose my cool.
I will be aware of what I am doing.
This relationship is we start off together so if anything happen, I hope we can solve it together and over come the obstacles.
I hope we can last forever and ever.
I wants to spend even more times with her.
I went universal studio with my baby love.
OMG.. The building are all nicely make and we have so much fun there.
I will upload the picture in the next post.
I wants to go again with friends.
I think it will be fun to go out with friends.
Woohooo!!! I need to get some change over for my wardrobe.
I have to throw away old clothes and buy in more new clothes and dresses.
Going shopping once I have enough money for it.
Wooohooo!!!!
I got a dream. And my dream is to open a cafe.
Before I can fulfill my dream. I have to go for courses and come out to find a new job.
I can support my own expenses and other stuff like dating money. haha..
So ya..
I need to go study already.
Although 90210 drama is distracting me, I have to start my revision and do well for my last semester:)
Sunday, August 1, 2010
Here is the photo:
Monday, June 7, 2010
I am missing my baby..
she went for her class bbq..
she is very busy now that why never check her iphone for massage.
but it okie.
i will wait patiently for her reply.
I'm officially missing you.And I don't know how I can do without.
I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Ooo, baby, I need you now.
I just need you now.
I just need you now.
Ooo, baby, I need you now.
Sunday, May 30, 2010
It has been a very long time since I update my blog.
so rite now I going to keep typing and typing till the post look long.
haha..
I have been very busy with attachment and work.
one whole week of working.
non stop..
no life.
bored but there nth I can do about it.
just have to spend each day each week with enjoyment.
(while typing half way,I have found out that there something wrong with my blogger.when I was press enter line breaking, it did not respond.end up i have to click for the line break.wierd?!)
so ya.
continue at where i stop.
as i was saying, i am very busy with attachment and work.
so i do not even have enough time to spend with my darling.
hope this attachment will soon.there more time to spend on my baby and look forward to "something special".eye shining with excitement.haha..
attachment is fine. i get to learn ways of analyzing water. so not bad. just that the working hours is very long but there 3 breaks so can relax a bit.
there 1 bad thing when attachment and that is have to do a report and presentation which i do not really like.
( this paragraph is a bit contradicting.don't what am i typing)
i am back blogging.
i was playing dota just now with baby and her friend.
i am so damn noob in it.
and they are very pro.
i keep getting owned or kill.
very sian.
but somehow i have a liking to this game.
it is something which i have never play before.
i need a lot of training in order not to die so many times.
a lot of vulgar words came out of my mouth when i am playing this game.
haha..psps..
it is very irritated when you die so many times and you can't buy the equipment/weapon which you want.
so ya..
i am addicted to lady antebellum's songs.
it is so nice and touching.
and the song is very suitable when you are in a relatioship.
but it is not suitable to those who do not like soothing song.
i want to upload one of the song in my blog.
but the music player got problem uploading that song.
so ya.
sadded.
because i want to upload one of the song for my darling to hear.
it say out how i feel.haha..
and some of the song say out how you feel sometime. like when you are happy,sad or after breaking up with bf.
so ya.
and i likes it so much.
i shall upload the lyric for my baby.
just for you to see and not to hear.haha..blehx.Here is the lyric:
Everybody keeps telling me I'm such a lucky man Lookin at you standin there I know I am Barefooted beauty with eyes that blue The sun shine sure looks good on you I swear Oh I can't believe I finally found you baby Happy ever after, after all this time Oh there's gonna be some ups and downs but with you to wrap my arms around I'm fine So baby, hold on tight Don't let go Hold onto the love we're making Cause baby when the ground starts shakin You gotta know when you've got a good thing You know you keep on bringin out the best of me And I need you now even more than the air I breathe You can make me laugh when I wanna cry This will last forever I just know, I know So baby, hold on tight Don't let go Hold onto the love we're making Cause baby when the ground starts shakin You gotta know when you've gotta good thing We got a good thing, baby, woah So hold on tight Baby, don't let go Hold onto the love we're making Cause baby when the ground starts shakin You gotta know, oh you gotta know Oh you gotta know, you gotta know When you got a good thing We got a good thing baby Woah, woah, woah, woah
(colour combination for this post:anyhow.haha.crazy)
Saturday, April 3, 2010
She is going poly.
I'm so happy and so proud of her.
And I will send my sweetheart to school whenever I can.
I'm at home right now.Nothing to do.So i decided to blog and my darling is shock when she heard me said that.
My shift training start tomorrow.
I'm so not looking forward to it.
Hope everything will go smoothly tomorrow.
And I will miss my baby very much.
I am so touch after watching QAF season 2 episode 11.
The wedding between a lesbian.
I was crying while watching it.
The vow which they have said to each other is very touching too.
I hope I can get marry to my darling someday.
haha.
I'm thinking too much.silly me.
